The Calling. Part 12

The world is slowly opening up again. So soon we will be back to normal, right? 

Now, I’m no economist. But if you have an already unstable world economy and you introduce a situation, where you shut down the whole of society so that one in five businesses have to declare bankruptcy as a direct consequence of it, take measures that deteriorate people’s mental health, thereby making them less productive and more prone to behavior that costs money for society, pay enormous sums of money to corporations that are going to “save” us and take all kinds of costly measures to handle the situation, make the biggest wealth transfer in history, from everyone else to the richest people on the planet, wouldn’t that have rather serious consequences? And shouldn't those that govern us know this, considering that they have access to all the best experts in all relevant fields? In light of this, do you really think that the actions of our leaders are simply due to fear and incompetence?

And an equally important question: When the consequences come, are you going to trust the people that made the decisions that created the mess, together with the only people that benefitted from the mess, to come up with the solution? 

As I’ve said in another post, I don’t know what I can say about this without being censored. But go to YouTube and search for “world” and “reset” if you want to know more about what I’m talking about. Russell Brand has made great videos about this.

This is not meant to spread fear. Everything is in God's hands and you are infinitely and eternally loved by God. But it's time to start thinking about who to put our faith and trust in. 

My spiritual awakening part 4

I forgot to mention two of important things in the previous post. One of those was that I cannot really remember my thought processes at this time, except for what I’ve just mentioned. But one thing that I do remember, is the other one. You see, I took out one week’s vacation from the post terminal that I was working at when this happened. I just wanted to take a week to myself and think things through. 

The first day of my vacation I was in central Gothenburg and I wanted to find a book to read. I went into the bookstore and my eyes immediately fell on Tomorrow’s God by Neale Donals Walsh. I did have a feeling that I was guided to it, but then I knew next to nothing about what I know today, so I didn’t think much of it. After a while, I didn’t think much of it, even though the book gave me some real food for thought and seemed like just the book I needed to read. Today I don’t believe that everything that is said in it comes from God. Because now I have some experience of hearing the voice of God myself, and I know that it’s often hard to distinguish from one’s own thoughts. 

Now I have lots of experience of being guided to books, movies and documentaries. I believe that God speaks to us all the time. We are just too occupied with thoughts about the past or the future to notice it. So for most of us, myself included, it’s just when God hits us in the face with a message that we actually take notice. I think that the robbery that I told you about in the first post in this series was such a message.

My spiritual awakening part 3

Just because I found meaning didn’t mean that my old patterns were gone of course. And among other things, I had developed the habit of lying to myself and others. Even though I wanted to be a force for good in the world, I was excellent at making myself believe my justifications for bad, destructive behaviour. But even then, I started to remove the worst stuff from my life.

I went back and forth for a bit, basically between living quite clean and partying quite hard. I tried some yoga and picked up a meditation practice. I don’t remember the exact times for everything. But somewhere around 26 I stopped smoking, started working out and went to the university. 

It’s interesting to look back at these things now. To see where I’ve made major decisions that have affected my life in a positive manner. And you can say what you want about the university (you learn a lot of nonsense there), but my time there taught me how to think in a different manner, to understand texts better and to sharpen my speech. I wouldn’t recommend anyone to get into the debt that I am in to get these skills. But I had fun and it changed me quite a lot in a positive way. It was an experience that both boosted my confidence and humbled me. It boosted my confidence to see that I did quite well in an academic setting and humbled me because I was constantly around loads of people that were smarter than me. And again it boosted my confidence, because I got to see how these same smart people could come to really stupid conclusions, when these conclusions were too shaped by their opinions. 

A little further down the road, I realized that my own opinions often skewed my perceptions of the world. It’s always easier to see these things in others than in oneself. 

An important lesson here, is that accurate thinking is very dependent on one’s ability to free oneself from one’s subjective opinions and views of the world. 

My spiritual awakening part 2

Before this event that set me off on my spiritual journey, I was a nihilist. I was into Laveyean satanism (basically ego-affirming atheism, at least on the surface) and I believed that life was completely pointless. You live and you die and when you die nothing matters anymore. I didn’t really care if I died tomorrow or in a hundred years and basically felt that I might as well grab hold of whatever little pleasure that came my way while I was still alive. Not that it was right or wrong. It just seemed like the thing that came most naturally when I just let myself go.

When I went through this back in 2006, I had very few to talk to about it and no one that knew exactly what was going on. And even though I never lost my faith in God, I slipped back into many of my old patterns after a while. But from this point, my life was less chaotic. I would say that meaningfulness was the big thing here. I cared whether I lived or died because I believed that there was a purpose with my life. Looking back on this now, I think that this is actually very significant. Because our attitudes towards life affect how we think, feel and act in pretty profound ways. I know that this could be considered speculation, but at the same time it’s undeniable. When you suddenly feel like there is meaning to your existence, you care if you live or die and then you start caring about your actions. It follows logically that this will have an effect on your actions.

My spiritual awakening part 1

I’ve written a lot about my awakening here on the Blog. But I wanted to collect the essentials under one heading.

For me it started way back in 2006. Basically I had started to question my former atheism a while back, when I got robbed as a direct consequence of the life that I was living. The same day I had had a hunch that something was going to happen, but since I didn’t believe in intuition and only a very vague openness to anything that went outside of the five sense reality, I ignored it and soon forgot it. In the evening it knocked on the door. I opened and four guys that I didn’t know stood outside. You can fill in the rest.

Afterwards I got a very strong feeling that this was God telling me something about the life. Had I known what I know now about religious psychology, I might have been more skeptical. The psychological literature says that traumatic events and rough periods can trigger sudden changes in religious beliefs. But I’m glad that I didn’t know this, because today I know that even though I trust the research on this, nothing happens by accident. Today I know that everything is in God’s hands and that God talks to us through every single little moment in our lives.

Voldemort part 3

Let’s look into our crystal ball for a moment. As with Voldemort, I’m not sure that I can mention this by name without being semi-censored (made invisible) by algorithms. But if you go to YouTube and type in the keywords “world” and “reset” you will find what I’m talking about. Then you can look into some critical voices, such as Russell Brand or Awakening with JP. 

Basically, this project involves most of the major public figures within the criminal elite, whether they are politicians, celebrities, corporate leaders or billionaires from different sectors of society. It seems a lot like the New World Order that “tin foil hats” have been warning about for decades. And this has been made possible through Voldemort, together with other major events, such as the 9/11 attack and the financial crisis in 2008. Coincidence? 

To me, it’s clear that a control system on the internet has been put in place. We leave traces everywhere on the internet. Algorithms control the information that we see. People are being censored and de-platformed. And we police each other by reporting content that is deemed inappropriate. And there will always be someone that reports stuff. The algorithms will take care of the rest. Through the Voldemort crisis, I’ve learned how effective censorship on the internet has gotten, as long as people support and give their consent to it. 

In a very short period of time, people in more or less free nations have gotten used to that the government can take away their freedoms with lockdowns, censorship and pressure to make them comply with taking the proposed solution. They have gotten used to comply with having to prove their medical status. Think about this: most people are now complying with allowing an experimental substance into their bodies without looking into the side-effects, reported or potential, the players that are involved in this or the economy behind this whole thing. And many are angry and afraid of those of us that refuse to do this.

And whether or not you believe that the criminal elite had something to do with unleashing Voldemort on the world, they are definitely the ones responsible for the lockdowns and other restrictions. Thus it follows that they are responsible for the economic consequences of the lockdowns and restrictions.

I wish to conclude this series by asking you to take the following into consideration: If this spiritual awakening is real, which it absolutely is, and the people in power know about it, which they absolutely do, and if it threatens their power, which it absolutely does, do you think that they might want to stop it? Do you think that they might even create a global crisis to stop it and to tighten their invisible grip on the world?

If you cannot even consider that this spiritual awakening might be real, you can discard everything that I say here. It simply isn’t for you. I know that it’s real, unfathomably huge and that it is a serious threat to those that run the world. Because once you go through it, you will know without a shadow of a doubt, that you don’t need any person to tell you what to do. That the only authority you ever need is God and that his will never has to be forced on you. You will know that competitiveness and that someone has to lose for someone else to win are illusions. You will start seeing how controlled and programmed that we all are. And you will wake up to the absolute fact, that you are not a small, solitary, limited creature, destined to live out a short, finite existence between two eternities of absolute nothingness. That you in fact are an immortal spiritual being, unconditionally loved by God and connected to everyone and everything else. You will know that the choice right now, is to either take responsibility for your own life and actions. Or to hand that responsibility over to someone else. And you will know that this choice is the choice between freedom and slavery.

Voldemort part 2

I know that something strange is happening in the world. I’ve had incredible inner experiences. I’ve seen how I’m changing and waking up to who I really am, how we really function and how the world really works. And those that seem to know what is going on say that this thing that is supposed to stop Voldemort is no good. This, I believe, is quite a powerful argument. But what if they do not really know? What if there is something big that is happening, but that those that talk about it don’t really know what it is at all?

As I’m continuing writing this, it’s the fourth of January 2022. I wrote the last paragraph a couple of months ago. Since then, detainment camps for un-vabjrshbuegyadvraevvadf in Australia have been confirmed, which fact checkers just a few weeks ago denied existed. A proposed bill, that would allow the government to detain people deemed threats to public health indefinitely without trial was downvoted in New York. We already know about all the censorship on the internet, many feel that they can trust nothing that comes from society. We have these things in our phones, that we have to show to have access to parts of society. They are now available as chips that can be inserted under the skin, making the warnings from way back, that say that these chips are the mark of the beast seem less and less like crazy religious conspiracy theories. Doctors refuse to report negative effects of the solution to Voldemort (and there are LOTS of them), but are happy to write down someone dying from a car accident with Voldemort in their bodies as caused by Voldemort. Many say that the solution to Voldemort changes one’s genes indefinitely. And yeah, the mass media is pushing the narrative that we who don’t take the solution are the reason that we still have Voldemort really hard, while different measures are being taken, both through political initiatives and among employers, to separate un-vabjrshbuegyadvraevvadf from those that are vabjrshbuegyadvraevvadf. In effect, two classes of people are being created. If you know a little about psychology and history, which loads of people don’t, you will know that such measures can lead to things getting ugly fast. Like murderous-ugly. And if you are a journalist or work with PR, you should definitely know this. And yeah, several countries are forcing kids to take the vabjrshbuegyadvraevvadf through making it mandatory in schools, and Austria has decided to fine those that refuse to take the vabjrshbuegyadvraevvadf. In all of this, America seems to have gotten a president that does not seem to know at all what he is doing, in a way that makes it look suspiciously much as if he is not really the one in charge. 

Furthermore, the biggest manufacturer of the solution for Voldemort has made a deal that absolve them from all responsibility for side-effects. Why would they do that if the solution is so safe? And the solution is still classified as experimental. 

And this is definitely not an exhaustive list of all the insanity.

And let’s not forget that a large part of our society has been shut down for years now. This must have damaged our economies greatly and there is a huge crash coming. One that will be much deadlier than Voldemort. Because the civil unrest will be unfathomable. This Is self-evident. You can’t shut down society in a way that makes loads of businesses shut down and causes the loss of tons of tax revenue, without it affecting the economy. And the economy was unstable before this. 

Now, I’m no economist. But I know that it is possible to pull out tricks that can delay a crash. Which is something that in all likelihood is happening now. But the crash must be on its way. And politicians and journalists must know this. Must have known this when the shut downs were put in place. And I think that maybe people have been so pre-occupied with Voldemort itself, that they have not thought much of the effects on the economy. And even less that the crash that is in all likelihood coming could have been foretold by a five year old. 

In all of this, there has also been a large wealth redistribution that has put more money in the hands of billionaires and less money in the hands of basically everyone else. I wonder what this means in the grander scheme of things, when the crash hits us and our living conditions as an inevitable consequence are radically altered.

Voldemort part 1

So, just like everyone else, this thing that everyone is afraid of, let’s call it Voldemort (because it must not be named), has been occupying my mind from time to time. First of all, I belong to the people that are not very afraid of it. I know the statistics and that it’s very unlikely that I will get seriously hurt. I’m also one of the people that have chosen not to take the thing because I’m concerned with what it might do to my body, as well as to my mind and even to my connection with my soul. In other words, I wish to be open with the fact that so far, I am very skeptical towards taking this thing that is supposed to solve our current situation. But I am a person who values the ability of not making hasty judgments or judgments based on insufficient knowledge. So when I started this series, that I managed to write several parts of before publishing, I did this with the explicit purpose of doing just that: explore the question from all angles, without making any final judgment. However, since I started this, so much has happened and I can honestly say that I will never take the solution for Voldemort.

The Calling. Part 12

It feels weird to say this out loud. But this awakening stuff, whatever it is, is definitely happening. The biggest event in the planet’s history is about to happen and it’s not just some elite club that is part of it. What is happening inside of many people, including myself, right now, is so huge that it will alter the course of history. Unless those that want to stop it manages to do so. And then they will be the ones altering the course of history instead.

I don’t know if the outcome of this is already predetermined or if our choices ultimately matter in the grander scheme of things. Some believe that they have the answers to these questions. I don’t. But now that I do know that, whatever else may be true, these spiritual awakenings are definitely happening, I also understand that it’s something very extraordinary that I and many others have the privilege of experiencing. Something that, as I asid, will alter the course of history.

I want you to pause for a second to reflect on what this actually means. If you are like me, your ego is probably still partially denying that this is happening. It might not feel as real as the maybe not so real reality that you have grown up to regard as the only reality. But this is absolutely real. And if it’s real, and there are people in the world that want it to go in another direction, they would want to stop it.

So, if you’re not going through an awakening yourself, please just ponder the idea that this awakening is actually happening. Couldn’t what is happening in the world right now, where our rights are rapidly being taken away. Where those that have awakened are also the same people that see dangers with the solution to Voldemort (the one that cannot be named), refuse to take it and therefore systematically separated from the rest of society.

The Calling. Part 11

While, as I said in the last post, I believe Christianity holds the key to this reality, I don’t believe that it should exclude learning from other religions. I know for example that the Chakra system of Hinduism is real. I also know that the Buddha said something important, when he said that the root causes of suffering are attachment and aversion. God built these things into our experience of reality. 

There is in general a whole energy system inside, that we can access just by paying attention to it. How could this be wrong? What I’ve come to realize, is that if the Bible gives a clear no no to something, we should listen to it. But the idea that we should try to discern prohibitions that aren’t explicit in the Biblical texts I believe are erroneous. If it, for one reason or another, is important that we don’t do something, I think this will be very explicit in the Bible and if we look at its effect on our lives, it should be pretty clear why as well.

The Calling. Part 10

So, why Christianity and not other religions? I think that the answer is to be found in the person Jesus. His life and example. I believe that he provided a blueprint for how to live in this world. 

At the same time, I’m starting to suspect that there is truth to the statement that we live in multiple dimensions simultaneously. And in other dimensions we might interact with reality in a different way, even if everything is connected. But the best way of interacting with this dimension was exemplified by Jesus.

The Calling. Part 9

It is as if a puzzle is being laid now. That is the best way of explaining it. Many different people get their piece of the truth. Maybe some people get the same piece and maybe all of those people are not going to reach the public with what they are finding out. I don’t know. Maybe, for one reason or another, the pieces of truth are not coming through without interference. Maybe they are distorted somehow. I don’t know.

The Calling. Part 8

WARNING: This is my intellect trying to understand something that it probably cannot understand.

Let’s look at the situation in the world without using any trigger words that may overstep the boundaries of what the new form of free speech that has grown out of our situation ;) allows. And I’m going to start by playing the devil’s advocate for a bit. It’s possible that the situation is more dangerous than we are lead to believe. That would explain the extreme measures that are being taken. But I don’t think that this is very likely, since anything that induces more fear would make people more prone to go for the proposed solution. But if there is some foul-play at work, why doesn’t the propaganda machine say that it’s worse than it is? I’ve thought about this for a while and there seems to be a logical reason. Namely that if the lies were too obvious, someone that knew what he or she was talking about would react to it. And if that happened, the rest might come down as well.

The Calling. Part 7

I know about all the crazy religious talk out there. And I’m seriously not interested in joining the choir that sings about satanic armies of transgender super soldiers. The truth is that I know very little. I only wish to speak of things that I can’t deny and not allow my mind to fly into a bunch of paranoid speculations.

At the same time, I do see that there must be an agenda behind what is happening with all the craziness in the world. In one way or another, the situation in the world is not the way we are told.

The Calling. Part 6

I’m still in a ton of doubt about this myself. But when I look at my own, rather extreme experiences, and what is going on in the world, it seems to ad up. I constantly ask myself if me and my wife are going crazy. If we’ve been caught up by some romantic idea of a post-apocalypse life or the need for feeling special. Or the ego-boost of having access to information or insights that most people don’t. Because both me and my wife are human. And as such, we share many human weaknesses that other people carry. But I know what I’ve experienced. And I’m seeing more and more people that are saying that things are not what they seem with the things that are happening right now. And in a little over a week, I’ve heard four people, independent of each other, talking about the end times and The Book of Revelations. And it’s not because I hang around with people that do nothing but talk about the Bible the whole day. I don’t know any such people. I suspect that I probably should though.

The Calling. Part 5.

I’ve been stalling long enough. So, here we go:

What came to me, was that we are really living in the end times. End time prophecies are being fulfilled right this moment. The prophecies of The Book of Revelation are coming true right now, in our time. 

What might seem paradoxical in this context, is that what also has come to me several times, is that all is well. We’re not here to be judged, but to be healed. Some healing might be painful though, as some of our wounds are severely infected. But we’re all in the end returning to our relationship with God, the way God intends for it to be.

The Calling. Part 4

I’m one of those people going through a spiritual awakening. There are really crazy things happening inside me and with my perception of reality. And I seem to get messages from God in different ways. Crazy, right? If I didn’t have my wife and other people around me to confirm that this is actually happening, plus the testimony from various other people that I have never met, I would be the first one to call the psychiatric clinic and have me committed.

The Calling. Part 3.

On the other hand - look at the world. Does everything seem right to you? Does it seem as if you are getting the whole story? Does the measures taken to stop Voldemort (the one that cannot be named), with the coercion, constraints, censorship and so on seem proportional to what we know about the situation? And isn’t it strange that this happens just when many people are starting to report that they are going through spiritual awakenings that turn their whole lives upside down? Awakenings that make us see ourselves completely differently, and see glimpses of the power within us that we can access when we connect with God on the inside?

The Calling. Part 2.

I am truly afraid of talking about this. Because I know how crazy it sounds and that most people that talk about this are labelled as religious nuts. And I believe that I’m for the most part a fairly open minded person, with an above average capacity for critical thinking and introspection. And I do have my doubts about this, I must confess. But as time goes, I seem to get more and more signs that I’m supposed to write what I’m about to write. So, I might be caught up in strange fantasies. I might even be going crazy. Then again, if it is so, then a lot of other people are going crazy right now as well.

The Calling. Part 1.

I had a strange experience on Saturday the 4^th in December 2021. I was laying in bed next to my wife when my thoughts wandered to all the non-Christians that are talking about their spiritual awakenings, when it struck me that we don’t have to be Christians to be called to Jesus. That all those that go through this are being called directly by God. Most of them just don’t understand this yet (This will probably anger both Christians and New Agers ;)).

As these thoughts entered my mind, I experienced something that I best can describe as fear of God and being shaken to the core of my soul. It was a very physical feeling, as if a storm went through my whole body. I also experienced several conflicting emotions at once and I’m going to try to give an account of them that is as accurate and honest as possible, while knowing that words cannot convey what it was even close to full extent. I might even be labelling the emotions wrongly, because I only have access to my erroneous memory. But the emotions, as far as I can remember them, were deep joy and grief at the same time, with tears flowing from both. It was a feeling of being utterly terrified and safe and held at the same time. I felt that I was completely at the mercy of God. A god that could end my life and do anything he pleased with me. And yet, I knew that this god loved me more than I could ever imagine.

All of this lasted for less than a minute, but it shook me to my core. Afterwards I was in shock and awe and insights that I cannot deny, at the same time as I don’t fully dare to believe them, came over me.