Short on prayer part 2

Happy New Year!

When we pray, we need to fully comprehend that God listens.

We don’t need to find the right words. God already knows what we want to say. We do, however, need to pray with sincerity. Sometimes - often in my case - prayers are just empty words. But when we pray with sincerity, we know that God listens and that God hears every little infinitesimal grain of insincerity. He still hears. He still listens. But what we say doesn’t mean anything.

When we pray with sincerity, things that we have hidden from ourselves will come to the surface. It gets brought into the light of God so that he can heal it.

The Calling. Part 8

WARNING: This is my intellect trying to understand something that it probably cannot understand.

Let’s look at the situation in the world without using any trigger words that may overstep the boundaries of what the new form of free speech that has grown out of our situation ;) allows. And I’m going to start by playing the devil’s advocate for a bit. It’s possible that the situation is more dangerous than we are lead to believe. That would explain the extreme measures that are being taken. But I don’t think that this is very likely, since anything that induces more fear would make people more prone to go for the proposed solution. But if there is some foul-play at work, why doesn’t the propaganda machine say that it’s worse than it is? I’ve thought about this for a while and there seems to be a logical reason. Namely that if the lies were too obvious, someone that knew what he or she was talking about would react to it. And if that happened, the rest might come down as well.

The Calling. Part 7

I know about all the crazy religious talk out there. And I’m seriously not interested in joining the choir that sings about satanic armies of transgender super soldiers. The truth is that I know very little. I only wish to speak of things that I can’t deny and not allow my mind to fly into a bunch of paranoid speculations.

At the same time, I do see that there must be an agenda behind what is happening with all the craziness in the world. In one way or another, the situation in the world is not the way we are told.

So, here's the deal

I feel that it’s time for an update.

So, here’s the deal:

I know that something huge is going on on the planet right now. Whatever spiritual awakening is, it’s happening. To lots of people. Undeniably. It’s not some wishful thinking or mass delusion. It’s not a question of “maybe, maybe not so let’s have a debate about it”. Having a debate about it would be like having a debate about whether the earth is flat. The connection with God on the inside is absolutely undeniable to me, even if it took a while for my ego to become convinced, and even if my ego sometimes still throws doubts in my way. Because it seems as if no matter what proof I experience in my life and together with my wife, my ego can still find ways of doubting. 

The “problem” is, for me, that for one reason or another, I’m led to Christianity. In the sense that the answers are to be found there. Not just in the sense that some answers are to be found there, but that THE answers are to be found there. This does not mean that all other religions are wrong and of the devil. I believe, for example, that the chakra system of Hinduism, the philosophy of letting go of attachment and resistance in Buddhism, or the natural flow of Taoism all have valuable things to teach us. 

So many crazy things have happened in my life. Things on the inside mostly. But also weird synchronicities and messages that come to me and my wife. So the crux of the matter, is that while this is undeniably happening, there is no way of proving to anyone else that it is. If we could, we could go out and show people the true nature of reality, we could overthrow the tyrants that rule the world by simply refusing to comply with them, and we could build utopia on earth. But for one reason or another, God has chosen to let things play out a different way.

Anyway, what I wish to do with the blog is to explore this openly. A few important questions to ask here are: “Why am I drawn to Christianity”, “what does this mean?”, “if Christianity is true, why is it true?” and “how come that most people that wake up don’t seem to be Christians?”

It seems though, as if many people that have woken up are using more and more biblical references and Christian terminology. And I do agree with those that say that “Christian” is a label. I even agree with those that say that it is a problematic label. I think that it seems a little strange that one’s whole eternal destiny would be contingent upon wether one adopted the label or not. 

On the other hand, I believe that this still is a valid label, for someone that, with all his or her human frailties and weaknesses, aspires to live like Jesus.

The Calling. Part 6

I’m still in a ton of doubt about this myself. But when I look at my own, rather extreme experiences, and what is going on in the world, it seems to ad up. I constantly ask myself if me and my wife are going crazy. If we’ve been caught up by some romantic idea of a post-apocalypse life or the need for feeling special. Or the ego-boost of having access to information or insights that most people don’t. Because both me and my wife are human. And as such, we share many human weaknesses that other people carry. But I know what I’ve experienced. And I’m seeing more and more people that are saying that things are not what they seem with the things that are happening right now. And in a little over a week, I’ve heard four people, independent of each other, talking about the end times and The Book of Revelations. And it’s not because I hang around with people that do nothing but talk about the Bible the whole day. I don’t know any such people. I suspect that I probably should though.

The Calling. Part 5.

I’ve been stalling long enough. So, here we go:

What came to me, was that we are really living in the end times. End time prophecies are being fulfilled right this moment. The prophecies of The Book of Revelation are coming true right now, in our time. 

What might seem paradoxical in this context, is that what also has come to me several times, is that all is well. We’re not here to be judged, but to be healed. Some healing might be painful though, as some of our wounds are severely infected. But we’re all in the end returning to our relationship with God, the way God intends for it to be.

The Calling. Part 4

I’m one of those people going through a spiritual awakening. There are really crazy things happening inside me and with my perception of reality. And I seem to get messages from God in different ways. Crazy, right? If I didn’t have my wife and other people around me to confirm that this is actually happening, plus the testimony from various other people that I have never met, I would be the first one to call the psychiatric clinic and have me committed.

The Calling. Part 3.

On the other hand - look at the world. Does everything seem right to you? Does it seem as if you are getting the whole story? Does the measures taken to stop Voldemort (the one that cannot be named), with the coercion, constraints, censorship and so on seem proportional to what we know about the situation? And isn’t it strange that this happens just when many people are starting to report that they are going through spiritual awakenings that turn their whole lives upside down? Awakenings that make us see ourselves completely differently, and see glimpses of the power within us that we can access when we connect with God on the inside?

The Calling. Part 2.

I am truly afraid of talking about this. Because I know how crazy it sounds and that most people that talk about this are labelled as religious nuts. And I believe that I’m for the most part a fairly open minded person, with an above average capacity for critical thinking and introspection. And I do have my doubts about this, I must confess. But as time goes, I seem to get more and more signs that I’m supposed to write what I’m about to write. So, I might be caught up in strange fantasies. I might even be going crazy. Then again, if it is so, then a lot of other people are going crazy right now as well.

The Calling. Part 1.

I had a strange experience on Saturday the 4^th in December 2021. I was laying in bed next to my wife when my thoughts wandered to all the non-Christians that are talking about their spiritual awakenings, when it struck me that we don’t have to be Christians to be called to Jesus. That all those that go through this are being called directly by God. Most of them just don’t understand this yet (This will probably anger both Christians and New Agers ;)).

As these thoughts entered my mind, I experienced something that I best can describe as fear of God and being shaken to the core of my soul. It was a very physical feeling, as if a storm went through my whole body. I also experienced several conflicting emotions at once and I’m going to try to give an account of them that is as accurate and honest as possible, while knowing that words cannot convey what it was even close to full extent. I might even be labelling the emotions wrongly, because I only have access to my erroneous memory. But the emotions, as far as I can remember them, were deep joy and grief at the same time, with tears flowing from both. It was a feeling of being utterly terrified and safe and held at the same time. I felt that I was completely at the mercy of God. A god that could end my life and do anything he pleased with me. And yet, I knew that this god loved me more than I could ever imagine.

All of this lasted for less than a minute, but it shook me to my core. Afterwards I was in shock and awe and insights that I cannot deny, at the same time as I don’t fully dare to believe them, came over me.