Until a few years ago, I didn’t see just how much I whined and complained about things. We generally don’t see such things, because while we treat others as if they are totally aware of their actions, we are strangely unaware of our own behavior. I didn’t see how egoistic I was, while I believed that others were fully aware of the same behavior. I didn’t see how manipulative I could be, but I believed that others were obviously plotting and scheming deliberately.
There is something that I find so fascinating with the Bible: It contains so many very human representations of unconscious behavior, which, when you first look at it you think: I would never do that. And as long as you think that way, you will never know yourself. What is fascinating is just this: That these depictions are so very human, but until we start to truly look at our selves, they don’t appear that way.
When Jesus says: “You hypocrite!” he is speaking to most of us. But no one is consciously a hypocrite. No one wants to be one. But we don’t see our own words and actions. We are not aware of the thoughts that go on inside of our heads.
There is so much more to be said about this. Because I truly feel that I’ve discovered something that was hidden in plain sight for most of my life. And I want to conclude with a somewhat broader and more personal reflection. We tend to often get carried away into wild speculations about other people, or about spirituality, philosophy, the world and so on, while missing what is right in front of us, such as that we are most of the time not aware what we are thinking about, how we treat other people, that we are not present in the moment, or even our postures and how we breathe and how these things, that are present all day, affect our moods and how we conduct ourselves throughout the day. We are so occupied with what is going on with others and the world, that we miss even the simplest, most obvious things about ourselves.
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