Living one's insights

It’s one thing to have insights and another to put them into practice. I catch myself more or less daily, acting against my better judgment. Because old habits are so ingrained in me. 

This has something to do with memory. I simply forget that I know a better way of doing things. I simply forget that I know better than doing certain things at all. And I forget that there is a better mindset to do things from. 

As with so many other things, this has to do with awareness. I lose myself in emotions and thoughts. I lose myself in the past or in the future, instead of being here and now. I lose myself in wishing for things to be different. And so I do things automatically, out of habit. 

I come back to awareness, awareness, awareness. It’s all about awareness. When I’m here and now my mind expands. I gain access to higher ways of functioning. When I lose awareness, I fall back into old patterns. Often I even forget that I can choose to bring awareness into every given moment. That every time that I lose awareness, it is a simple choice to bring it back to the present moment. It does not take any effort at all. But our minds are so used to everything taking effort, that it fools itself into thinking that this also takes effort. And so it resists it.