Attempts at figuring everything out...

Nothing is what it seems. The world and everything in it is something other than I thought it was. I know this now. And since I realized this, I’ve been so caught up in trying to figure everything out, that I’ve been driving myself crazy because of it. There is just so much that I want to know. So much that I want to understand. 

I’ve reached a few conclusions that I discussed in a recent blog post. But I can’t be satisfied with those. My thoughts keep on spinning. Keep on trying to guess what is going on. Sometimes they fly off into really bizarre explanations that I’m not even going to discuss here, because you will definitely think that I’m crazy. But it’s probably not that strange. I don’t know where you who is reading this are on your journey. But I’ve encountered undeniable evidence that the world and the systems within it are very different from what I’ve been taught to believe. That we cannot trust our five sense at all and logic and reason are very impotent tools for understanding reality. And yet, these are the tools that I’ve been told to use to make sense of everything. So my brain continues to make one suggestion after the other about what is going on, while it really has nothing to base these suggestions on.

So, maybe it’s time to let go and just trust the process. Maybe it’s time to focus on what I do know and build from there. When you know beyond any reasonable doubt, that reality is more than what can be perceived with the five senses, it follows logically that anything becomes possible. And from this, basically two options follow. With nothing else to go on, I can either drive myself crazy by continue to guess, or let go, do my best, be my best and hope for the best. Because this, whatever it is, is definitely happening.

And honestly, there is so much in our everyday experience that is totally magical when we lift our heads a little bit and just observe what is really going on: To truly inhabit our bodies. To really experience our senses. To truly connect with other people. A thought just struck me: Perhaps we need to start with this physical experience, right here, right now, if we want to access what is beyond it. Because whatever is beyond it, and there certainly is something, right here and right now, this physical experience is what we have in front of us.