Fear is an energy that attaches itself to the heart

I’ve noticed something in my yoga practice recently. Namely that I come to a point in my breathing, where it feels like I don’t get enough oxygen. A feeling of panic arises in my chest. But if I just accept the feeling, neither reacting to- nor resisting it, I feel how blockages get released inside my body and head, especially blockages around the heart.

I have noticed that there is a huge block here. And the more I release, the more I am able to let love into my life. What I believe that this means, is that there is a real, physical way of experiencing the fundamental truth, that life ultimately comes down to a choice between love and fear.

Fear ultimately comes down to the fear of death. It is not always physical death. It can also be the fear of living a life that feels like one has already died.

Since I experienced this and the more I practice this non-resistance during yoga, I’ve noticed that it becomes easier and easier to feel these stored emotions even when I don’t do yoga. And when I truly don’t react to them at all, as I feel them inside my body, but just allow them to be there and to be felt fully, I am able to let them go. 

I want to talk about this more in depth in another post, but the foundation of this is to learn to stay present inside our heads and not let our attention drift elsewhere, while at the same time feeling whatever goes on inside the body without reacting to it. In the beginning there will be a tendency to react when we feel these blockages. But with practice we will become better at just feeling whatever it is that we are feeling.

In the beginning, at least for me, it was difficult to feel these emotional blocks inside my body. I just felt them as stiffness and constriction, but not the emotions behind them. But the more I put focused attention on what was going on inside my body, the more I started to get into contact with the emotions behind these blockages.