From what I’ve gathered, there are basically two ways of finding approaching truth when it comes to religion and spirituality: experience and prophecy. And checking our experience against other people’s experiences. Because making sense of our experiences is to a large degree a collective pursuit.
None of it can, for obvious reasons, be considered totally reliable. But at least they bring us out of the realm of completely arbitrary beliefs.
This will be important as we continue.
So, here’s the thing: there is a strange knowing that is growing inside of me. This is the best way that I can explain it. This knowing entails that the world is much more than we perceive with our five senses. That we live on many different planes at the same time. But until I started experiencing this, I was only experiencing reality through my physical body.
I would say that this is most definitely a spiritual awakening.
Since I began realizing that this was what was happening, I’ve been studying the concept of spiritual awakening quite extensively.
I want to contrast this with another knowing that has entered my life during the past few years. Namely that the answers are to be found in the Bible and in Jesus. This has come to me in such an undeniable way, that it would be impossible for me to dismiss it. Think “shaken to the core” kind of way. This while most people that go through a spiritual awakening flee organized religion.
This is difficult for me to talk about. Because if it wasn’t for all of the things that I’ve experienced, often together with my wife, I would not have the confidence to do so. Probably rightly. I would have to just pick one framework of beliefs or the other. But then we have that little word: “experience”. Which is such a crucial word here.
Ultimately everything is just subjective experience, even though, as I stated in the beginning, there might be ways of at least approaching something objective, even if we can never know for sure. There is obviously the possibility that literally nothing is what it seems and what we perceive as reality is not even an illusion, but a total lie. But that sort of thinking isn’t very helpful for anything but perspective.
It you really study the Bible, it’s hard to deny that the hand of God has had a role to play in it. There is, maybe above all else, a strange coherence in it, where everything in the Old Testament seem to point to Jesus, even though it was written during about 2000 years. There is a narrative that does not seem to come just from the individual humans that have written and put it together.
All over the Old Testament, there are furthermore these little signs that point to Jesus. For example, the prophet Isaiah speaks about Jesus in a way that, if you don’t know that it’s in the Old Testament, you would think that it’s taken from the New Testament.
Or take the story of Abraham and Isac. Abraham, the father of Israel, is called to sacrifice his son. But instead God offers him a ram with its horns caught in A THICKET. Seen in this context, it’s hard to think that the similarity between this and a crown of thorns is just a coincidence. Because this is after all the story of the father of Israel sacrificing his son.
I can point to many other passages in the Old Testament of this sort, but you could easily google it, so I will leave it at that.
On the other hand, if you read the Bible literally, it’s hard to reconcile certain statements. On the one hand, God is loving, kind, merciful, almighty and goes out of his way to save everyone. On the other, most of humanity is destined for hell? Eternal suffering most of the time because people act out of ignorance and not because they sin with full intent. No fair worldly justice system would allow something even close to this. And what would we think of a father that treated his children in such a manner?
I know that there is something here that I might not understand. This is not a rhetorical statement, I might add, but actually a very important one. Because when many intelligent people believe something that you yourself cannot se the logic behind, it’s always wise to leave the door open for the possibility that there is something that you haven’t understood. Especially when it comes to such an important matter as the eternal destiny of the soul.
However the explanations that I’ve heard for why people have to go to hell for all eternity, even from very insightful people, just don’t make sense to me. It’s usually something along the lines of: “God is not just loving, but also just, so he has to punish sinners.” Really? An almighty God has no other choice but to punish people? Often for actions where they didn’t know any better? For all eternity? Or worse yet, for failing to believe the right things?
The only way to make sense of this would be to imagine that Satan has a power that is equal to, or close to equal to that of God.
On the other, consider that the Bible is people’s encounters with the divine. People that lived under very different circumstances than we do. You have to take away at least 2.000 years of philosophy, psychology, and, basically, all that we know within the hard sciences, of course including quantum physics. What if these people tried to make sense of what they were experiencing from their understanding and the minds that this understanding shaped? Very real experiences, I might add, but for which they didn’t have the knowledge of the world that full understanding would require. What if it’s the same for us today? What if, from the perspective of God’s knowledge, we only know a fraction more than people did 2000 years ago?